Each time one of our children was born, I remember feeling, life could get no happier. I felt so complete, so one with God, I thought I there could not possibly be more pleasure in life. I thought I was satisfied.
But was I?
Several times after fasting and praying, I thought I’d reached the point to say Yes, Lord, and even wrote a song (yet to be set to music) which basically says if “all there was to my life” was knowing the truth of God’s love and sacrifice, I’d be satisfied.
But am I?
How many times have I run to food or shopping or other things to satisfy a glum mood? How many times have I searched for an escape from saying Yes, Lord… and how many times have I said the words with unwilling grumpiness, forgetting the many times God delivered me?
I am inspired to see or hear of people who respond to difficulty and tragedy with that “even though” kind of faith like our David did, saying Yes, Lord what do you want to teach me now, and these familiar faces in the Bible:
Job – “Though He slay me, I will hope in Him. (Job 13:15) Job could relate our losses because he lost his livelihood the same day all his children died. His health reduced him to a place where no one wanted to be near him lest the disasters touch them too… but Job 1:22 says – Not once through all this did Job sin; not once did he blame God.
David – Psa. 17:15 As for me, I shall behold Thy face in righteousness; I will be satisfied with Thy likeness when I awake. And Psa. 119:57 Because you have satisfied me, GOD, I promise to do everything you say.
Abraham who did not flinch to do whatever God said…
Gen. 22:1-2 Now it came about …, that God tested Abraham, and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” And He said, “Take now your son, your only son, whom you love, Isaac, and go to the land of Moriah; and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I will tell you.” I can’t even imagine saying Yes, Lord to that one.
Later in Gen. 25 we are told the results of Abraham’s obedience – And Abraham breathed his last and died in a ripe old age, an old man and satisfied with life; (even though)
I am beginning to see what brought about the end result of “satisfied” with these and others I have witnessed – it is that even if once they sought for satisfaction in themselves they had come to the place where they recognized the truth of Luke 6:25 (The Message):
And it’s trouble ahead if you’re satisfied with yourself.
Your self will not satisfy you for long.
And it’s trouble ahead if you think life’s all fun and games.
There’s suffering to be met,
and you’re going to meet it.
What made them – and draws me – to be satisfied is realizing nothing in myself can bring about eternal satisfaction but knowing He who satisfies. . .
As Job said – I will Hope – in Him (Jesus Christ) – the same now and forever (even though)
As David said – YOU God, satisfied me and when I awake (after death) I WILL BE SATISFIED with your likeness
As was said about Abraham – he was satisfied with life – the course and passage of a lifetime – (even though)
And me? That is what I want too- to be able to say, Lord, I’m satisfied. Not with myself…or anything I have done, but with knowing that even though sometimes life seems unbearably dark and painful, even though I have had to walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I am comforted when I recognize His presence through it all.
Psa. 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil; for Thou art with me;
Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me.
I want to abide in His promise that
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, Thou wilt revive me; (Psa. 138:7 )
And I want to encourage you all who have, or who now are, or who will experience trouble
… even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; (1Pet. 1:6-7)
And My people shall be satisfied with My goodness,” declares the LORD (Jer.31)
What a beautiful study of God’s Word apprehended by your heart. I came to your blog to see how you are doing. I see… even though… it is well with your soul. Beautiful friend; cherished mentor!
Dee, I just finished a study on the part of the armor, The Shoes of Peace. The last question was “Do you know of a person whose life is [peace filled. Write his or her name below and describe how you’ve seen this virtue reflected against the backdrop of difficult circumstances.” Needless to say your name came up and I then opened up this post by you. What an example of peace. Thanks for writing.
So I’m not the only one.
Mary, I hope it comforts you as much as it does me to know we are not alone in our wild journey! D