This is the inside of the little white Bible I wrote about last time. Childish handwriting of my first discoveries. I didn’t write all over the margins back then – like I do now (and have done the past um…lots of years)- but I did write inside the covers.
Just looking at the verses I am sure you thought of topics or themes, as I did, but thought I’d review them, considering my insecure and unhappy (abusive) home life at the time, and see what were my first BIG discoveries of faith. The fact that I wrote them down meant they were thoughts I wanted to be sure to remember and to revisit.
The little white Bible is King James version, which I no longer use but it is interesting when I ponder the old-world language and translation it brings me back to my first love – because this was where the stirrings of faith began.
I really was analytical at a very young age, and loved to play devil’s advocate and debate things. [I totally related to Dolly Parton’s characterization in Coat of Many Colors] Interesting that God took this feisty little girl and gave this verse:
James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
Back then, although I knew I was being sinned against (abuse), and I was more than willing to confess their faults! Interesting the Bible did not encourage me to do that. Certainly, I also knew without a doubt (and worried) that many of my thoughts and wishes were not pleasing to God. It was comforting, though, when I later found that David whom God referred to as a man after His own heart, also wished and prayed for punishment on the villains in his life 🙂
Scripture, I’ve found then and since, always has an order to accomplishment. So, if I wanted to be rescued from my situation (or myself) the first thing I need to do was the first thing listed:
My room was the second window to the left of the tree in the photo’s center. I spent a lot of time there, and on the roof outside of that window, pondering these deep thoughts and writing letters to God. Wish I knew what happened to those writings… All this because I knew I was wounded.
I did long to be healed. I’d been told since infancy that I was a bad seed. I didn’t think there was any possibility of that changing, so imagine my heart soaring to read this passage!
And how could I get righteous? That stirred up a hunt for that word in the Bible – I did not have to go far in the same book to find it – James 1:20 For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.
James 2:23 And the scripture was fulfilled which saith, Abraham believed God, and it was imputed unto him for righteousness: and he was called the Friend of God. James 3:18 And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.
Here I was shown the steps of righteousness
That is where it all began, and God called me to be a peace-maker in our family.
Where did your faith begin? What is the first Bible verse that spoke opened your heart to belief?