Discoveries of Faith – Part 1 of 5

WhiteBibleverses2This is the inside of the little white Bible I wrote about last time.   Childish handwriting of my first discoveries. I didn’t write all over the margins back then – like I do now (and have done the past um…lots of years)- but I did write inside the covers.

Just looking at the verses I am sure you thought of topics or themes, as I did, but thought I’d review them, considering my insecure and unhappy (abusive) home life at the time, and see what were my first BIG discoveries of faith.  The fact that I wrote them down meant they were thoughts I wanted to be sure to remember and to revisit.

The little white Bible is King James version, which I no longer use but it is interesting when I ponder the old-world language and translation it brings me back to my first love – because this was where the stirrings of faith began.

I really was analytical at a very young age, and loved to play devil’s advocate and debate things.  [I totally related to Dolly Parton’s characterization in Coat of Many Colors] Interesting that God took this feisty little girl and gave this verse:

James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

oldpic0002Back then, although I knew I was being sinned against (abuse), and I was more than willing to confess their faults! Interesting the Bible did not encourage me to do that. Certainly, I also knew without a doubt (and worried) that many of my thoughts and wishes were not pleasing to God.   It was comforting, though, when I later found that David whom God referred to as a man after His own heart, also wished and prayed for punishment on the villains in his life 🙂

Scripture, I’ve found then and since, always has an order to accomplishment. So, if I wanted to be rescued from my situation (or myself) the first thing I need to do was the first thing listed:

  1. Confess my own faults  (didn’t seem fair at the time, but they weren’t hard to find)
  2. Praying for one another (still the biggest challenge of my life to pray for my enemies)
  3. Realize I could be healed. There was more than a possibility of being made whole – it says do this that you MAY be healed.
  4. Discover and use a certain type of prayer (effectual and fervent) (effectual of course means something effective or constructive that works, and fervent is focused, passionate and intense – committed, too, I think.
  5. But wait – it says prayers of a righteous person – How can I get that – seems as though that is a basis – a central or foundational quality to be found before even praying.

My room was the second window to the left of the tree in the photo’s center. I spent a lot of time there, and on the roof outside of that window, pondering these deep thoughts and writing letters to God. Wish I knew what happened to those writings… All this because I knew I was wounded.

VulcanhouseI did long to be healed. I’d been told since infancy that I was a bad seed. I didn’t think there was any possibility of that changing, so imagine my heart soaring to read this passage!

And how could I get righteous? That stirred up a hunt for that word in the Bible – I did not have to go far in the same book to find it – James 1:20 For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.

James 2:23 And the scripture was fulfilled which saith, Abraham believed God, and it was imputed unto him for righteousness: and he was called the Friend of God. James 3:18 And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.

Here I was shown the steps of righteousness

  • Give my anger to God – it says man’s anger does not work (create or accomplish) God’s righteousness – and I wanted that righteousness so my prayers would be effectual.
  • Believe! That was how Abraham got righteous and how I could too. I had no problem with believing. Early on I had a knowing of God’s existence, and exploratory quizzing found more proof that the Bible was God’s Words then not, so I accepted that too.
  • The seed of righteousness could begin to grow in those who make peace.

1-StarblueThat is where it all began, and God called me to be a peace-maker in our family.

Where did your faith begin?  What is the first Bible verse that spoke opened your heart to belief?



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