Here I am Lord

It’s been quite the journey since the concussion in January and then the shingles that “added insult to injury.”  Balance and vision are improving, but perhaps another 4-6 weeks until I can get a new vision prescription and spend more than 10 minutes on the computer without tear-producing pain.

Three different people sent me this devotion this week.  I have been and am learning from this time of fallow ground.  I will write more on that next time, but for now, just in case some of you are experiencing a challenging time, I share what so evidentally God wanted me to hear.  I can truly say this is where I am, Lord.

The devotions is from Streams in the Desert by L.B. Cowman


This is my doing. (1 Kings 12:24)

The disappointments of life are simply the hidden appointments of love.
–C.A. Fox

My child, I have a message for you today. Let me whisper it in your ear so any storm clouds that may arise will shine with glory, and the rough places you may have to walk will be made smooth. It is only four words, but let them sink into your inner being, and use them as a pillow to rest your weary head. “This is my doing.”

Have you ever realized that whatever concerns you concerns Me too? “For whoever touches you touches the apple of [my] eye” (Zech. 2:8). “You are precious and honored in my sight” (Isa. 43:4). Therefore it is My special delight to teach you.

I want you to learn when temptations attack you, and the enemy comes in “like a pent up flood” (Isa. 59:19)., that “this is my doing” and that your weakness needs My strength, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you.

Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you, never ask your opinion, and always push you aside? “This is my doing.” I am the God of circumstances. You did not come to this place by accident — you are exactly where I meant for you to be.

Have you not asked Me to make you humble? Then see that I have placed you in the perfect school where this lesson is taught. Your circumstances and the people around you are only being used to accomplish My will.

Are you having problems with money, finding it hard to make ends meet? “This is my doing,” for I am the One who keeps your finances, and I want you to learn to depend upon Me. My supply is limitless and I “will meet your needs” (Phil. 4:19). I want you to prove My promises so no one may say, “You did not trust in the Lord your God” (Deut. 1:32).

Are you experiencing a time of sorrow? “This is my doing.” I am “a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering” (Isa. 53:3). I have allowed your earthly comforters to fail you, so that by turning to Me you may receive “eternal encouragement and good hope” (2 Thess. 2:16). Have you longed to do some great work for Me but instead have been set aside on a bed of sickness and pain? “This is my doing.” You were so busy I could not get your attention, and I wanted to teach you some of My deepest truths. “They also serve who only stand and wait.” In fact, some of My greatest workers are those physically unable to serve, but who have learned to wield the powerful weapon of prayer.

Today I place a cup of holy oil in your hands. Use it freely, My child. Anoint with it every new circumstance, every word that hurts you, every interruption that makes you impatient, and every weakness you have. The pain will leave as you learn to see Me in all things.
–Laura A. Barter Snow

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On the Shelf

7227It only takes a moment from a too-rushed schedule. A distraction, an errant thought you want to brush away, or a rush of movement to shake off an overwhelming thought.


A thud and a captive audience gasping alerted me to the fact that I’d looked away from the door too long, and instead attempted to rush through the plate glass window next to it.


More embarrassed than anything, I groped for the door to my right and shouldered myself and the bag of “tossed lunch” toward our car. Ken peered at me oddly as I dropped into the seat and used both hands to peel my glasses off my face.


I had a headache. Expected. Back and shoulder also ached next day. Expected. Went for massage and that helped some. Went to chiropractor who sent me to MD to check for potential shingles (often follows trauma) and to check for concussion. It began to feel like 9 little monkeys jumping on the bed when both shingles and concussion were confirmed and he sent me to eye doctor because I began seeing double.


1-nativecrossSuddenly from full-on schedule, all kinds of plans, commitments, goals to – REST.


I quickly began to realize I had carried over the drive for approval from childhood, because without lists, appointments, and commitments, I was reduced to inactivity – and I felt valueless.


Typing while looking at the screen was too painful Reading could be done but only in snatches, and only if material was at waist level or lower and I was looking down at the material, and lighting was low.


Of course the incident made me think of friend Candi Rae, who had a severe concussion. I hospital_bedprayed for her with more understanding than I’d been able to in the past. With my new schedule of appointments for the three areas affected, I thought of my friend Kathi and all the months and months of medical challenges she has recently. Those first days I found my value in praying with new understanding for many in my world.   From time to time lack of sleep and pain relief brought me to tears and I thought of Cec Murphy – emotions are not reality – they are just feelings.


Determined to read some reality – I pulled out my BSF Lesson (John) and read one of the introductory pages of Ted Dekker’s Forgotten Way study. I’d been too busy to start it in Dec. and too busy to do it in Jan. I could not do the videos but I could read these lessons and be confronted – and comforted with reality. Both had the same truth for me – God does not base our relationship or my value on what I do, or how much I do. Even if this stage were to be my new normal (as I am praying, please, God, no), God’s love for me and FearVerses-Antidoterelationship with me would not change.


The docs did do me one big favor – STRONGLY urged hubby to help me get a new adjustable desk. He and my favorite son got it set up and I look forward to eliminating some of the clutter it will replace.   Hopefully picture next week. I also review some products and had to chuckle at the new offering from a popular post-it-note company – a shelf. It will be a great place to display some big rocks as reminders of this moment and there’s value – even in being on the shelf.


PrairieandMisc2014 1340So there you have it. If you don’t hear much from this restless spirit over the next couple weeks yet (eye dr. says probably 3-5 weeks) you will know I am on the prayer shelf, soaking up some comforting reality, praying for you, and slimming down my previously overwhelming goal list.






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“Shepherds After My Own Heart” Means…

This was great. Pastor Mike happens to be my grandson. I Peter 5 is my favorite example of how Not to be a good shepherd. I appreciate how it relates and applies as do other passages shared to many other other callings that involve leadership, supervision, parenting etc. interesting how all of our callings of influence have the same core- submitting to and modeling Christ.

Questions & Hope


“I will give you shepherds after my own heart, who will lead you with knowledge and understanding” – Jeremiah 3:15

I’ve just finished my third book in the New Studies in Biblical Theology Series. My goal this year (+next year?) is to get through all 41 books. So far I am loving this series. Each book in the series traces a specific theme throughout all of Scripture. It is some good ol’ Biblical Theology, at its very best! The first theme I worked through was idolatry (previous blog post here) and the second theme was adultery (previous blog post here). I needed a pick-up after those first two (gee, really Mike?) and figured this one by Timothy S. Laniak (Professor of Old Testament at Gordon-Conwell) would hit the spot. If humans are so prone to adultery and idolatry (which we are), then what does it mean to be…

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Replanting America’s Garden


2327Someone once said
“GRACE and MERCY are like the two oars in a row boat. Unless they are both used in balance, the one rowing will go around in circles and never arrive at their destination.”


Grace is defined as undeserved favor – in other words, God giving us what we don’t deserve.


God gave us the gift of His son and his taking our place on the cross.


Knowing about and receiving and experiencing that GRACE helps us to understand how to show grace to others.


2023We can show GRACE in Word

            There’s always a choice in how to respond – Choose to respond in GRACE – with kind words the person may not deserve, but with love for their souls.


We can show GRACE in Action

            By implementing MERCY


Mercy is compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one’s power to punish or harm. (Dictionary)


IMG_1401            Forgiveness, responding thoughtfully instead of reacting in similar tone or language, and watching for or asking if the person has a need we can fill, are all ways we can, in MERCY, show GRACE to others.


Grace AND Mercy work together because you and I know that words are fine, but actions reveal the heart behind the words.


Words can touch a person’s heart – or leave them cold. Words of grace, delivered with acts of Mercy (noticing the person, listening to them, thanking them for sharing their heart with you, honoring their souls created in God’s image).


Serving with Grace and Mercy is easier when we remember that it is often hurting people that lash out and hurt others. If we can meet their actions are met with gracious acts of mercy and grace

 We are God’s seeds, and seasoning to this bitter world…


1-LaurieChicagoLet’s make America’s garden grow –

Enjoy the Gaither Vocal Band, reminding us


Let’s sow grace and mercy!




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After Losing a Child – All the Pieces of My Life

lauriekev (2)It is January and the 23rd is Laurie’s birthday. I have no doubt that is why I’ve been feeling the absence of a piece of my heart.


I’ve also been loading the music she played in her car onto an old phone so I can play the music in mine. It’s well mixed with songs that lifted me up, made me feel loved, and gave me guidance and direction. Laurie often would send a brief email, or text to say on the way to work today, I heard this song by Selah, or Keith Green, or Amy Grant, or…and prayed it for you.


Music has always calmed the beast of my emotions when I could not focus. I’ve found a unique (to me, anyway) way of really listening to music as a form of devotion. As I play the music, I type the lyrics. That may seem crazy, but it forces my mind and my hands and my heart to work together, and creates a focus of intense listening.  Sometimes, like today, I  found I’d missed a word, or missed understanding a word or two.


Yes, the song today was All the Pieces of My Life – by the Imperials – from their legacy album 1977-1988. Eons ago. 🙂


puzzleSo I’ve listened, sung along, and yes, prayed this song many many, times. I’ve also built puzzles, and enjoyed solving many puzzles, which perhaps made this song resonate so much with me.


I first pray for those who minister to my heart through this music. Next, I listen and type at least twice, then I look up the actual lyrics.


The image of an unfinished puzzle, with pieces piled up and jumbled – the puzzle unformed, is before me. Though I’ve obviously tried to gather and sort them—tried to make sense of it, I was discouraged. It had come to the point where I realized some of the pieces are gone, and I cannot complete it again. For some reason, all I heard at the end of the verse was again – and it brought my mind back to the desperate knowledge that lost moments are gone – a reminder that I could not put it (my life’s puzzle) together again.


1-lauriemechicagojordansBut – the phrase I’d missed was more than ‘again’ – it was in the words of Jesus, responding to my frustration, and anguish at this puzzle of life with the gaping holes from missing pieces:


“He said, pieces, pieces – I’ve got all the pieces to your life

A thousand tiny fragments of every single day

I can put them all together, and there will never be another one who can.


I can’t — but He can!

Such a simple truth, but it belted out in my heart!

The pieces may be gone from my sight – but they are not LOST – Jesus said,

He’s got them. He said they are in the Father’s hand! And He confirmed (see John 18:9 below) He’s not lost a single one of them!


He’s the creator of the design of that puzzle. I finally heard the complete message of the song


2042He spoke with great compassion — as he put one hand on me

And in His other hand he held what I could never see

(spiritual that is not visible to me)

So that


Every little memory, of every single day –

And He alone can put them all together

And there will never be another one who can.


Silly me for trying to do what only He can.


John 18:9 that the word might be fulfilled which He spoke, “Of those whom Thou hast given Me I lost not one.”


LaurieMIsmileJohn 10:28 and I give eternal life to them, and they shall never perish; and no one shall snatch them out of My hand.

John 10:29 “My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father’s hand.”


Pieces – by the Imperials

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Go! Go? Yeah, But…

10052What if you heard that word —GO! —but not where to go?


Author Bunny Wilson shared after 911 about a ship’s captain who was told, “Go.”


I recall her saying


When those planes hit the World Trade Towers and we sent our forces across the ocean, I will never forget that there was a captain being interviewed. He was about to take his war vessel across the ocean and the reporter said, “Where are you going?”

The captain said, “East.”

The reporter said, “What is your destination?”

The captain said “East.”

The reporter said, “How are you going to know where to go?”

The captain said, “When I head East, eventually I will get orders for where I am supposed to go.”


IMG_2909That was a distinct reminder of another situation in Genesis 12:11


The LORD had said to Abram, “Leave your native country, your relatives, and your father’s family, and go to the land that I will show you.”


Imagine yourself in either of those situations. How would you feel? Would you be comfortable, trusting, excited, or anxious and doubtful? Would you pack up, and…go?


My sympathy is with Moses and Jeremiah (or call us Yeah-But)


Exodus 4 – Moses

But Moses pleaded with the LORD, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.”


Jeremiah 1 – Jeremiah
6“O Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I can’t speak for you! I’m too young!”

7The LORD replied, “Don’t say, ‘I’m too young,’ for you must go wherever I send you and say whatever I tell you. 8And don’t be afraid of the people, for I will be with you and will protect you. I, the LORD, have spoken!” 9Then the LORD reached out and touched my mouth


10065We also are told to ‘go’ – in Luke 24:47 and Mark 16:15 for example:

“Go into all the world and preach the Gospel to all creation” Acts 1:8 clarifies it somewhat –“ you will be my witnesses to testify about me in Jerusalem,
throughout Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”



A young couple I know approached a mission and asked what was required. They were told three things: 1) get ready (pray, get rid of burdens like debt, and pack up) 2) practice (activate your faith where you are and areas of need you can reach with whatever is at your disposal – your Jerusalem, Judea and Samaria) then you will be given more direction and responsibility.


A few short years later they realized radio, then internet gave them access to much of the known world, and they are ‘going’ via prayer, technology, and personal outreach.


No matter how we look at this command to ‘go,’ I think it implies obedience and trust. Action beyond excuses:


10131To step out before

God gives you the words

Or the exact location


After all – who is your neighbor but

Whoever has a need that you can fill


So – there is your challenge for today:



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Here I Am – Again

Here I am again…

haitianbutterflyTangled threads, knots, and black holes, and here and there I marvel at a bronze, or silver, or even a gold streak, not added by human hand – another year of my life tapestry.


In case you aren’t aware, a tapestry design develops from threads of different colors worked left to right (the weft) OVER vertical threads of the background cloth (the warp).


Picturing a cross will give you a visual – vertical (God to people, us reaching to God) – horizontal – people to people (living the activated faith life)


gardenartcrossWhen the tapestry is completed three truths are evident:


Though the (thicker) vertical threads form the foundation of the tapestry, when the tapestry is completed they are no longer visible


Though the horizontal threads form the design of the tapestry, without the support of the strong background, they would unravel


The two – vertical threads and horizontal threads – become one.


My life – a tapestry.


So here I am again – looking back on another year’s work. The tapestry is still incomplete.

Some parts seem muddled and dark. I do not understand them, and wish I could rip them out and finish the design myself. I’ve obviously tried that before because there are holes here and there, where I’ve tried to manipulate the design.


TombCalvaryBut as I count the holes, my eyes well with grateful tears because sections I know were black holes just last year, are now covered over by exceptionally beautiful threads and design. I run my fingers over Bronze (judgment) and Silver (redemption) beautifully worked together. I am learning just as the tapestry is made of two, this design would not be possible, one without the other.


Tears of remembrance at the weaver’s surgical correction of my foolish attempts to ‘fix’ the tapestry are painful, but healing too, and I understand what He had to do to repair my blunders.


There is much to be done in the coming year. I do not know how much time is left before my tapestry will be completed and ready to present. Despite my strong will wanting to leave out the dark colors, my weak tendency to be jealous of another’s tapestry, and my foolish anxiety over the year ahead, I remember, and sigh deeply.


I am not the designer.

He who creates beauty where none exists has taken my lumpy, knotted threads, and is working in what can only happen when His hands guide the threads – miraculously, my greatest joy, when others tell me they see in my tapestry, His signature thread of gold.


So here I am again – after yesterday, wondering what my word for the year will be. Asking what will God use to guide me to reduce the tension created when I grip the threads, and let him weave what He will?


LaurieKenhillmontReviewing the year has me humbled that despite all my weakness, moody grief-overload, want-to-fix-everything, and the sometime disastrous results, God has shown me favor.

Among so many others – favor in you – your friendship, encouragement, book reviews,  and prayers; favor in many helpers – jobs, writing, technology, cutting the clutter, and on and on, and favor especially in God allowing a word or story experience of mine to draw another closer to Him.

Thus my word for 2017 and my fasting focus will be: favor


Psalm 90:17 And let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us;

         And do confirm for us the work of our hands;

         Yes, confirm the work of our hands.


What is your word for the year and your tapestry story?

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My Messianic Christmas

1-StarblueThe star – the six-pointed star of David – is found in many places in my home. To me, that star, and the coming three events are forever intertwined.

Hanukkah –December 24 to January 1, 2017

Christmas – Sunday, December 25

Epiphany /Three Kings‘ Day – January 6


These are personal celebrations, as well as public. A little background:


Hanukkah is an annual renewing celebration to renew our faith in the ultimate triumph of peace over war. A festival of peace.


The original Hanukkah events took place during the 400 year period between writing the last book of the Hebrew scriptures (Old Testament to me) and the book of Matthew – the first book in the New Testament. I point that out to emphasize that it happened long before our ancestors chose December 25 to celebrate the birth of Christ.


The Smallest Candle

The Smallest Candle

Happened? The Greek successors to Alexander, especially Antiochus IV, held to a belief that their way of life was superior (though it involved idolatry and exalted human wisdom). They set about to “civilize” the people of Judea by forcing them into the Greek mold. Only those who would renounce the old ways and accept their new (including the worship of Greek gods) could have a place in the Greek society. It was decreed that “whoever refuses should be put to death.” They defiled the Holy Temple, looting the utensils and offered a pig on the altar to honor the Greek god, Zeus. It is said that an elderly priest defied a soldier who ordered him to bow down to an idol and with his sons and other faithful Jews, formed a band of gorilla fighters. The story goes that from their mountain camp the 3,000 Jewish fighters, watched Antiochus’ general Lysias and 47,000 Syrian soldiers to engage them in battle.


Well! Maccabees band, with God at their side, overcame the Syrians at Emmaus. They purified the temple, dismantled the altar and built a new one. Only one vessel of sanctified oil was found – enough for one day. Miraculously, it burned for eight days! The festival of Hanukkah, memorializing this event is called the Festival of Lights. The historian Josephus explained that the right to serve God came to the people unexpectedly, light a sudden light.


IMG_5570Christmas – and Three Kings days are also about a sudden light in troubled times – Magi from the east studied and watched for a prophesied star – a sudden light that would identify the king of the Jews. Matthew 2:1,2

After Jesus was born in Bethlehem in Judea, during the time of King Herod, Magi from the east came to Jerusalem and asked, “Where is the one who has been born king of the Jews? We saw his star in the east and have come to worship him.”


Yes, even the enemy, was made aware of the prophecy of the one who was to be born when the Magi asked him about the King of the Jews. Herod called together the chief priest and scribes of Jerusalem and asked them where the prophesied “King” was to be born. They pointed him to words of Micah from 800 years prior: “And you, O Bethlehem of Ephrata, least among the clans of Judah, from you one shall come forth to rule Israel for Me, one whose origin is from of old, from ancient times.”


Herod told the Magi to come back to him when they found the child. Of course we learn from Matthew 2: 16-18 that the Magi were warned by God not to tell Herod where Jesus was. The star they had followed, but had disappeared temporarily, reappeared when they headed for the prophesied town and led them to the house in Bethlehem where they saw the infant Y’shua (Jesus).

2151Rabbi Yaakov Bar Nachman in The Hanukkah Haggadah, says that the purpose of Hanukkah is to welcome the Messiah.

I put these together because Christmas (the birth of the Christ) fulfilled numerous prophecies –

Most notably: Isaiah 7:14, Micah 5:1-2, Genesis 49:10, Isaiah 11:1-10, Jeremiah 23:5


How appropriate then, that years later, at Hanukkah, the Festival of Lights, Jesus/Y’shua spoke from the Temple courts and said:

“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12

When I first read and learned that the feast of Purim extends the invitation to all who support Israel (Esther 9:27) the Jews established and made a custom for themselves, and for their descendants, and for all those who allied themselves with them, I was naturally excited to realize I too had been invited to celebrate God’s protecting hand over Israel.


Similarly, I see that connection in the passage from Luke 2: 9-11 commonly known as “the Christmas story.”

star_7758c“An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the city of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Messiah the Lord!”


In these troubled times, I welcome that reminder and celebrate what I like to call a Messianic Christmas. It reminds me once again of how connected God’s people are – and how the festivals were created for His chosen people – the Jews, and His grafted people because the roots of my faith  – and my Messiah, Savior and Lord – are Jewish.


31 But these which have been recorded are here so that you may trust that Yeshua is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by this trust you may have life because of who he is.

jewishbible– John 20:31 – The Complete Jewish Bible

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Tis the Season… to Feel Overwhelmed!

Joy-betteChristmas is coming!  And “Santa” isn’t the only one making a list and checking it twice.

  • Christmas cards to sign, address and mail
  • Gifts to find or make within a very limited budget
  • Food to plan and prepare
  • Cleaning – (too late to organize and put away everything – may have to hide some)
  • Decorating

It was a great time to receive a copy of Overwhelmed – a book with unique perspectives and tips to conquer much of what is too much in our lives. When I find a good thing, I love to share it with my friends and family. Here is my take on the project (because it is more than just a book), and below – a special deal that runs through the month of December.


overwhelmedClutter – be it things, commitments, worries, projects, or goals constricts our life borders and hems us in, consuming and controlling us — making us feel overwhelmed. When I am feeling mentally or emotionally overwhelmed, decisions and commitments loom bigger than life because I want to (or feel obligated to) do them all. Kathy Lipp and Cheri Gregory convincingly empower people like me as the only ones who can free ourselves from all that would overwhelm and consume us.



Personalized keys/hacks/tips follow brief quizzes that help the reader identify areas of need. Every chapter in Overwhelmed produced a series of Yep, that’s me and Why didn’t I think of that moments. It’s a survival guide of sisters who have been there.

I greatly respect survivors, and am grateful to learn from their experience. Some early benefits (I’m two-thirds through the book) are clarity and control of my calendar, goals and to-do lists.

The difference is I can more clearly see where I need to say no, prioritize relational time, schedule realistic time for editing, and where I need to focus a little more attention to finish something so the open-ended chaos no longer overwhelms me.

I feel like I’ve changed my de-cluttering wardrobe from slippers to boots with spurs. Overwhelmed is my clutter rodeo – training me to identify and rope in what is important to keep and release the rest.

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After Losing A Child – Christmas and New Traditions

Someone is listening.

1-5socks.xmasLots of planning is going on for upcoming events – some is fun to hear, and of course, other things are painful IF/when I focus on what I don’t have rather than what I did have – and do have.

How sad would it be, one friend asked, if we never had the joy of knowing the love and presence of the loved ones who are now with the Lord?

To love, and be loved.

I have known that, and do know that. I know I am loved thanks to many of you reading this – many who at just the right time send a note or a scripture.

In the midst of all my pondering, and tears, someone was listening. I was given a friend’s bookmark memento featuring their loved one’s photo, and brief obituary. I read a lot and use such bookmarks to pray for their family and the lives that person impacted. I was given encouragement to make my own with Laurie’s photo and local obituary on it. I called the place named on my friend’s bookmark and asked if I could have a few made, the response was, “I can do that.” I got a quote and a few days later a call that they were ready. When I picked them up I was told, “Of course there is no charge.”


lauriebookmarkOf course?


Of course – from someone who has experienced a similar loss.

I especially appreciated the verse at the end …”No one can take them out of My Father’s hand.” – Jesus – John 10:29


A bowl of soup joined two aching hearts a few days later, as I shared Laurie’s bookmark with another who had a double loss and was now feeling alone – and invisible. I didn’t mean to make her cry again – and she said she didn’t mean to make me cry either. But someone was listening, and the scriptures from our memorial cards gave us hope, and the stories we began sharing of their lives and exploits brought comfort and meaning to us.


We each determined to make someone else feel that someone was listening, by beginning or continuing new traditions in honor of our loved ones. One of hers is to pray for and support those who lost babies – whether infant or preborn. Mine is to pray for and provide gardening and farming supplies for families overseas and in the U.S. and to do a pay-it-forward meal as I am led, in memory of my Dad. In these ways we can do part of what we know was in the hearts of our loved ones, and realize in their stead the joy of sharing their passion.

I wonder why I am left, my friend said to me. Selfishly, I asked, “Have you been praying for me?”

“Why yes, of course,” she answered.

“And didn’t you just share about others you pray for and encourage as you can?”

“I see where you are going with this,” she responded with a chuckle. Her acceptance led to sharing other prayer list names and events, and some of God’s answers, as well as other things we asked for peace about, realizing we may never have answers to them while we are on earth. The knowledge of prayer was important to us and we want to let others know we take the time to bring their grief and their needs before God.

img710 1An email my daughter sent her dad in 2008 hangs near the computer. She expressed gratefulness that she was driving an older vehicle which had no radio because distractions were eliminated so she could “have time each day to pray for you! God answers prayer! (it never gets old!)”

Do you pray for those your loved one left behind? We know our other family members prayed each day for them…


Have you lost a loved one, or know someone who has? Have you a new tradition to remember their precious life and passion in a way that makes a difference in others’ lives? We would love to hear your ideas, as it may encourage others who are having what singer Mark Schulz calls “A Different Kind of Christmas.”


Go ahead. Plan it out – write it down, and share it.


IMG_5683I’m listening.


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